do you ever realize how lucky you are sometimes? but you are scared to realize how lucky you are because it will be taken away. i do sometimes, i get so scared to appreciate what i really have for fear of losing it.
"I kept imagining the end, the despair I would suffer when it came, and it made any happiness I had in the present seem not merely ephemeral, but doomed. Because the happier I allowed myself to be now, the more miserable I would be later" -Elizabeth Wurtzel
agh, i know this sounds so whiny but i can't help thinking it.